I used to fear death but not anymore. I know I’m going to heaven one day, my real home. I know I’ll be with the Lord forever and it will be wonderful beyond my wildest imagination. However, I haven’t finished my race here on earth and I’m afraid. My greatest fear is disappointing God. I mean, I’ve wasted so much time! I’ve been such a sinner all my life and I’m an old man now. I envy those people who were raised in a godly home and groomed at a young age to serve the Lord and have done so all their lives. I know what I must do but I’m late to the party in my estimation. I trust God completely. God doesn’t make mistakes. I’m where God wants me to be so I’ve started where I am and I’ll continue my personal walk with the Lord until I’m called home.
I’m comforted by the example of the Apostle Paul. Paul was the greatest enemy of Christianity until his conversion on the road to Damascus. Once Paul knew the truth he immediately started serving the Lord and his past sins were forgiven. Paul went on to become the greatest Christian to ever live. Now that we know the truth we need to follow the example of Paul and serve God with conviction and passion. What was Paul’s secret? Paul’s greatest fear was disappointing God and it drove him to do great things for the kingdom. The lesson here is start where you are and serve the Lord faithfully going forward. God will forget your past and see only the good going forward.
Proverbs 9:10 The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.
Psalm 19:7 – The law of the Lord is perfect, converting the soul.
1 Corinthians 9:16 – Woe unto me if I preach not the gospel!
Romans 1:16 – For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ: for it is the power of God unto salvation to every one that believes; to the Jew first, and also to the Gentile.